I'm Not Superwoman.

What have you come to receive? What have you come to give?Seven years after being invited to consider that, as a student in a workshop I was there not only to receive the teachings, but to contribute something to the experience, this precious inquiry continues to inform and inspire me. 
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It reminds me of what my mom used to say before we went to a party: "remember that you are here to give." Early this morning, with the self-imposed deadline of sending this to you today, I am struggling to write.

Feeling blocked by the collective tiredness of a busy month, the pressure to produce, and the loop of "not enough ness," I wrote: 

What is in my heart now? What can I possibly offer? 

At this very moment, 5:36 am Monday morning, I don't feel like I've got a whole lot. And you know what? It's ok. In fact, after a super-scheduled month, my energy reserves are low. I can hear now my dear friend Adele saying with a smile and a wink: "So, you are not Superwoman?" 

No, indeed. I am not Superwoman. 

And yet, I always have something to give. Today, it's simply my attention. This moment when I am writing and thinking of you reading this. When we are connected through space and time, sharing nothing more, nothing less than our presence. Actually, what is more precious than presence? 

And in our digitally-distracted, hyper-active, over-stimulated, under-nourished culture, bringing your whole attention to a single moment is no small effort. In fact, it feels like the biggest challenge for me and therefore is the heart of my practice. 

And right now, with birdsong in the background, my cushion calls, asking me to please pay attention. To honor this sacred time with myself. To offer my devotion and dedication, and in exchange, to receive the sense of being at home that comes when I sit and breathe and move and pray and practice presence.
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So, I send this out to you with love and gratitude for receiving what we are offering at Mytree and for all that you are giving to support and sustain our blessedly ordinary human community.